Tuesday, April 29, 2008
1. Describe yourself in five words.
Friendly (i TRY to be...),Listen,Emo,shy,lame(I CAN WALK HOR!!!)

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boyfriend ?
boyfriend?!??!?!?!?WAA?????nono i m straight...so i tink u mean girlfriend....both equally important,but if both require help...i sry buddies i ll go help her!o yes btr change question....XDXD or not

3. Who is the person you trust the most ?
erm a few.........soo yea my CLOSE frens....

4. Do you think you have enough confidence ?

5. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be ?
To b able fix THAT broken frenship.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain ?
lolx.....i dun tink this questions r as easy as it looks but yes.....MOST of the time

7. What is your goal for this year ?
SCORE WELL!!! n hopefully fix my frenship(i noe tis repeat but i REALI wan tis frenship back!!!)

8. Do you believe in eternity love ?
lolx u mean eternal love?hahax yes....but u nid to work to kip it eternal too! ^.^

9. Have you broken someone heart that she/he tried to commit suicide ?
i tink i MITE hav broken one or two hearts but no....they didnt commit suicide...XDD

10. What feeling do you love most ?
feeling LOVED! *where is the love XDD?*

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half ?
erm.....wunt mind how i look, caring, fun, n most imptntly...LOVES mi for whu i m....

12. What feeling do you hate the most ?

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours ?

14. Do you believe in GOD ?
yes....but sumtimes i doubt i do >.<

15. What do you think is the most important thing in in your life ?
my friends n the people i love n GOD!!

16. Who cares for you the most ?
My close POLY fren! spring, thank you!!!!

17. Do you think love is everything and eternity?
lolx isnt tis a repeat?no love isnt everythng...but i tink it makes up MOST of my life other question look up! ^.^

18.wat have you regretted doing in your whole life ?
SPOILING THAT frenship >.<

19. IF time were to rewind, will you want it to be ?
YES definately!

20. Would you wait forever for someone you love?
yes.....even when i say i forgot u....i still care kkx? XDD i sound stalkerish SHYT

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haix i dun wan do tis but....
XDDD if u dun do i wunt blame u XDD

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Monday, April 28, 2008
i m feeling AWFUL......i hav no idea why....sians...soo yea....i dun feel lyk bloggin jux felt lyk rawring


there =D

why does it feel
lyk my whole world
is crashing down?

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Sunday, April 27, 2008
....real emo cux i m feeling that way now....welll i m emo bcux of mi.....well i m begining to think more n more bout Delight now....the fact that shes in my sch is lyk a double edged sword...i m happi!cux now i can see her...see how shes doing see whether she fine not....but @ the same time it HURTS sooo bad...i mean EACH time i see her...i have to pretend...that i dunt see her....that i dun care....i didnt feel it den...but RITE NOW...it REALI hurts...i wonder whether she rmb mi...n if she does...does she still hate mi?cux.....if she does.....i reali dunnoe wad to do....

after all this time,
i never thought we'll be here
but can you see,
that all that matters now,
is ur frenship to mi.

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Saturday, April 26, 2008
lolx i m back yea....today was ok i guess.had gi=uitar lesson n learned Home by daughtry....yea pract in class tgill i m DAMN sian n my finger turned blue WTH yea...den went to change my xbox n got the old ver.....AGAIN!sians...but @ least now i got my xbox back...i changed its orientation so i HOPE it doesnt break down again....so after that my family went to learn golf....it was ok(my longest is aprox now 100m?)my first time too....WOW i sux
its harder den it looks!

AFTER all this time,
i m glad,
that you are not mine


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Wednesday, April 23, 2008
LOLX yes i m back,and again i m TOO EARLY for sch =.= yea...tdy's lesson starts @ 10am but i m here @ 7am....sigh so from 7-8 i was sitting down n doing my maths tutorial,before heading off to the lib to use their coms there...yea so i sat down n lyk did my stuff(foruming,bloggin,reading ppl blog)when LO AND BEHOLD i saw Salmah XDD lolx apparently she got to sch early as well...so i finished up my stuff on the com before heading off to have a chat.LOLX shes reali in Wushu lahx...OMG hahax anywayx we had a nice little chat n lucky for mi it wasted one hour (YAYNESS) but now shes off to class so i m back alone AGAIN.....one more hour to start of class.....OMG n i CNT log on to maths online to do a tutorial......SHYT i m sooooo SCREWED blog more lata i hope

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Tuesday, April 22, 2008
bloggin time has come again.....YAYNESS ......NOT ok....tdy is a RELATIVELY normal day....sooo i shall tok bout mi....yay....i m veri lame, no i can walk...i m lyk "lame". toking to my course mates, i all of a sudden went "you know....for every situation in life,theres a song to go wif it.for example,when u r in alecture n the lecturer is naggin bout sum point, i reali wan go 'SHUDDUP JUX SHUDUP,SHUDUP'" YEA i m tat lame....o n den he asked...wad if the guy is in the toilet? i went " o......den before he SHITS.....he gets 'low,low,low,low,low,low' XDD"

YEA stop here

To see u smile tdy,
is the best thng in the year by far.
how i wished,
i could see it everyday

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Monday, April 21, 2008
ok...i typed a WHOLE post but for sum reason.....it got del....anywayx....i wanted to write how i felt...which was VERI alone....Jamie has her best frenx....while.... i onli hav CLOSE frenx....whom i would lykly lose contact with AFTA poly...but i wan fren that last mi a lifetime.....

I wished you were mine.
If you ever nid a shoulder to lean on,
or a listening ear,
I'll be there

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I m justy uber bored to be doing this......here i m @ sch's lib @.....8.09AM well....i was here @ 7...>.< n best part my lesson starts @ 9....zzzzzzzz o yea...i sprained my left leg zzzz ow....update lata more bahx.....


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Thursday, April 17, 2008
Yo it's been a while seen I last posted, srry bout it!but poly life really DRAINS ALL your energy...so anyway things have been great(WELL not GREAT but good.)Absolutely NO progress has been made in the investigation( MY STUFF!!!!!) but (with Jie's help)i MANAGED to sort my head now....so now i m frenx wif XXXXX.....BUT tdy i tink i saw sumone....who SHOULDNT be in NP...its Delight....OMG afta how long...afta all i bin thru....y her again???i mean i dun HATE her.....its just...i dunw an see her in sch...esp since i still kinda lyk her...well....i m too emo now to continue.....sooo yea nxt time...

It just feels,
That you rather the world,
Not have me at all.

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Sunday, April 13, 2008
okok...i m back....n tis time...i m nt THAT EMO...YAY hahax...goin for the apple pi outing reali cheered mi up....surprisingly...bcux...XXXX was there...n i didnt do wad i wanted to due to.....circumstances.....anywayx it was fun....but NO PICs......cux i lost my camera (COME BACK TO MI LEHX!!!!!!!)but for sum freaking reason i couldnt b not happi....anywayx...i toked to steph when i got home....n yea we had a nice chat XDD i tried calling XXXX but alas its just not meant to be XDD

anywayx i woke up tdy VERIVERI sad.....which prob explains why i was soo happi during the nite >.< ok so i practically emoed thru out chruch.....yea....went HANs to eat AGAIN....but i dcided msg steph
hahax shes lyk a happy drug...btr than choco (THNX STEPH!!!)hahax so now i m jux a LIL emo...yea...tmr goin first day of sch.....i m worried cux....my father gonna tok to the sch director or sumthng.......sians y mux the FIRST DAY B LYK TIS????

I called u,
But there's no one there.
But I'll remember this,
You're worth waiting for.

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Saturday, April 12, 2008
Ystr was the WORST day of my whole entire sad little existance i call a life, during FOP my bag was stolen...HECK it was under the F***ING "WATCHFUL EYES" of my seniors...no 1 noes wad the f***ing hell happened to my bag...BEST part is my bag cointains ALL my belongings...my LAPPY(NNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOO), Camera , Wallet , Mp3 player....EVERYTHNG INCLUDING MY IC N STUDENT ID!!!!!!WAF***...i was damn sad/depressed/pissed off @ myself...inside the bag there other thngs too...that mean ALOT TO MI...a thank you card given by the worship team @ chruch for example,my o LVL stuff...all these thngs HAVE SENTIMENTAL VALUE!!!!!OMG...my prents obviously gave mi a GOOD SCOLDING...(3-4.5 k worth of stuff....no scolding the world dies lahx)anywayx wad reali got mi sad was when i was in the police station...it gave mi time to think...all the thinks i lyk/hold dear/LOVED hs ALWAES bin either PUSHED AWAY,LOST,NOT GIVEN BACK ETC....for example...everygal i lyk has ALWAES REJECTED mi....my belongings i love ALWAES GET SPOILED/stolen(my Z610i,lappy,camera,Xbox 360[broken])...it lead mi to realise/question myself....do i reali deserve to be alive?

If I'm ever gone,
I hope by then you'll have seen
How much YOU realy mean to me.

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Friday, April 11, 2008
It just kills me to see you,
cause i have a question to ask you
'would you b my date?' is wad i wan to say,
but would you ever say yes?

thats how i feel now....well...first two lines havnt happen yet...sians...everyone asking me to ask face to face....WHY?!?!??!?!?!

anywayx ystr SOE ME division FOP was BBBBBBBBBOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGG. I m real sry to say tis but seriously...how can it be fun if we have GL / Gamemasters which dun even seem remotely INTERESTED in tis programme......n yes i M in sch now.....ooooo i also received my Student Id from np tdy o^.^o yayness...n my foto now REALI looks lyk a mug shot....XDD okok....sians hope if i meet XXXX i got the BALLS to ask her......>.<

PLX lord,
for this once,
help mi thru!!!!


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Thursday, April 10, 2008
yo dudes n dudettes....hahaxmost of u must b @ home {or in poly} still aslp XDD wel i m WIDE awake XDD n yes i m in NGEE ANN NOW XDD its curently 715am....omg n the best part....my orientation programme starts @ 9am hahax....so its 1 hour 15 min of....doing nth XDD learnt sumthng ystr n i m worried cux...well i m nt gonna into details but gd luck david!! o^.^o hahax rite now i m kinda feeling excited, worried, n a tinny weeny bit emo.....hahax ok shall update sum othe rtime cya!!!

should i?
or should'nt i?
to invite u
is my biggest dream of all

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Wednesday, April 9, 2008
sigh.....tdy.....is a bloody gloomy day for mi.....woke up 1 hour earlier than usual...my xbox has died(3RROD) so rite now i m practicing my guitar,but seriously i dunnoe wad i m practicing for alrdy...sians...moment i signed in messenger i was greeted wif a sight i rather had not seen.n now i m wondering...m i gd enuf not....not onli for HER but tomy friends,family n GOD .....>.< suumtimes i jux wish i could jux die....peaceful n quietly....so that no one noes...i hav bin dubbed photographer wif mi new group cux i alwaes take pictures when apple pi has an outing...some of the ppl alrdy noticed i m nt in MOST of the shots...they even ask mi nxt time they would go take the pics so that i would b in the picture,wads the point ppl would jux forget mi again...mayb its my job to turn invisible...n jux watch the world go on without mi...its as if time is standing still where i m...sians i ll post tmr zzz catch ya lata guyx

Invisible I'm cursed to be,
As you and him were meant to be
The obvious you would never see,
How much you really mean to me


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Tuesday, April 8, 2008
ok dudes n dudettes....forthe post i m gonna b lyk spamming shyt so yea.....first LOOOOOOOONNNNNNGGGGG post u see is the lryics to the song which speaks to mi now...(IT SHUD B AUTO PLAYING) yea its Simon by Lifehouse....i jux feel tis song suits mi now....

second is jux a stupid poem i came up wif(steph dun scold mi hor)

Simon by Lifehouse
Catch your breath
Hit the wall
Scream out loud
As you start to crawl
Back in your cage
The only place
where they will
Leave you alone
'Cause the weak will seek the weaker 'til they've broken them
Could you get it back again
Would it be the same
Fulfillment to their lack of strength at your expense
Left you with no defense they tore it down
And i have felt the same
As you, I've felt the same
As you, I've felt the same
Locked inside
The only place
where you feel sheltered
Where you feel safe
You lost yourself
In your search to find
Something else
To hide behind
'Cause the fearful always preyed upon your confidence
Did they see the consequence
When they pushed you around
The arrogant build kingdoms made of the different ones
Breaking them 'til they've become
Just another crown
And i have felt the same
As you, I've felt the same
As you, I've felt the same
As you, I've felt the same
Refuse to feel,
Anything at all
Refuse to slip,
Refuse to fall
Can't be weak,
Can't stand still
Watch your back,
'Cause no one will
You don't know why they had to go this far
Traded your worth for these scars
For your only company
Don't believe the lies that they've told to you
And not one word was true
You're alright, You're alright, You're alright
And I have felt the same
As you, I've felt the same
As you, I've felt the same
As you, I've felt the same
La da da da da X6
As you, I've felt the same

Joyful i never am,
Oblivious to the things i lost.
Don't you think its so sad,
I Lose what I never had.


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Monday, April 7, 2008
yo dudes n duddettes...the emo dude is back,yes from that u can prob infer i m emo...so lets jux get all the happi parts of mi out first...

ok ystr sentosa outing was a BLAST lolx sentosa mux go wif a lot of ppl den fun sia....i went there LATE. i was waiting for joyce as she was one of the crew members...so afta chruch we rushed over in our jeans (which is totali inappropriate for goin to the beach)n yes we toked bout stuff....bout her meeting XXXXX n mi meetin XXXX...yea she wanted mi show her my XXXXXXXX but i wasnt too sure whether we would even meet her not...(MAN was i wrong...)so when we reached sentosa we met SOPHIA! WOOHOO~though she wasnt aS hyper as during FOC.hahax wif her was her bf...russel(OMG i dunnoe spell his name)okok...so here we r...@ the Monorail station....i wanted to walk but JOYCE didnt want n so we took the tram.BTW the tram was freaking slow.....it was jux slightly faster then ppl walking......i tink i ride bike also faster sia...anywayx we passed by sum APPLE PI ppl INCLUDING mi XXXXX yea...so they greeted mi...yea but jodi went so much as to run up to the tram n say a VERI loud n ENergetic hello to mi.....i tink joyce was scared lahx XDD...okok so den reached the beach where the usual stuff happend ppl burried in sand,ppl gttin dunked,beach sooccer,frissbee n stuff i got a few cuts from trying to escape the dunking so yea.....hahaxso anywayx we all lata ate @ vivo banquet n i realised den i had NO money.....well i onli had 5.50...so i bought mi n jodi a drink n den bought my self FAN CHOY zzzz which all costed 4.50....sians afta tat sum wanted drink @ coffee bean so yea i wanted stay but afta looking @ the time (n wallet decided to go home)sians i had sum company till outram a mere one stop away.....before embarking on a long....lnelyride home before i forget the link to the fotos i took is HERE

ok emo now....got home....went online com n asked david bout...STUFF which he obviously didnt tell mi anythng....so i logged off n went up bathe n get rdy for slp....as usual i cnt slp again....so i on my lappy n leeched other ppl internet....surfed for a while till tohru called yea....toked to her for a while...before i went to slp...yea

to ppl whu im mi ystr n asked mi wads wrong....hahax i m sry to hav brushed u off lyk tat but yea...tisn sorta thng u cnt reali hlp so yea...thnx for corncern anywayx....okok i m goin back to emoing

to XXXXX:u mite nva noe tis ,
u mite nva hear it,
but one thng for sure,
is that i would alwaes b there.

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Friday, April 4, 2008
yo dues (n Dudettes)XDD so anywayx...ystr we had the veri IMPROMPTU outing for APPLE PI!!!!!!woohoohoo(for peeps whu hav no clue....apple pi is the group i was wif for FOC which is shortform for Freshmen Orientation Camp.okok so i taken ics n uploaded them onto photo bucket......heres the link to ALL the fotos....

i also b posting the few fotos i lyked...yea comments for them plz

okok...but seriously even wif all the fun n stuff....i reali was pretty emo...(on the inside)its hard puttin on a fake smile.....n using hyperness to cover up ur dispair n stuff.....i found out sumthng.sumthng i wished i havnt found out....so rite now i m in total confusion.......sians i went home early actuali not onli due to my parents naggin......i was feelin damn down lahx....i wanted to @ least send her to her mrt station n didnt get to do it....in the end sumone else did....i wonder....does it mean i m reali not fit to b loved?

P.s. for those of u whu noe.....yea kip it to urslf....plz,....

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Tuesday, April 1, 2008
i m bored so i shall post randomly XDD k lahx...some ppl noe my secret so yea...dom n steph...zzzz(u guyz btr not betray mi sia)...anywayx...tdy sent another sms toher ....n yes...no reply...zzz...lolx i m kinda used to it liaox...soooyea.....zzz....aiyo.....okok tdy is pretti borring...soyea......i m bored to death....soalot of BAD THOUGHTs r in my head.....well bad =negative .....well i guess i bin lyk that siunce delight...soo...yea

okok before tis blog nono post becomes emoish....i shall stop bbbbb

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