Sian-ed

Life can be soo mediocre sometimes it makes you wanna scream. Wheres all the excitement in it.

well anyway tried to do AECAD yesterday but failed horribly. School laptop too slow/lousy apparently.It's soo slow/lousy i dun even see the blinking line to see where have i typed to in this post. WTH. I wants my ASUS laptop now please and thank you. So poor old me gotta rush it out today and tomorrow.Sigh. Life of a LAZY student.

Still i feel damn lost. Theres little reason to keep studying harder than what i am now. "For my future/own good" is the common reason my brain and parents throw at me but. It really all appears rather meaningless. Coupled with my seemingly forgetful brain (which forgets things very very quickly. It doesn't retain info as well as before, which resulted in me failling my ETE. I need help man. 15 min to lesson start now but really i don't feel like going. but what to do?

Same goes for my guitar. I really enjoy certain moments when i play/ practice, but those are like a rare sight. Recently i realised how lousy i am =.=''' mostly due to lack of practice, and me not having ennough skill. sigh.

I hope i find a reason to work hard soon. I'm determined to change but apparently either determination is not enough, or i just have a weak resolve?

Labels: Life Stories, Rants

Finding my Feet Again

Today's feeling like a good day for me =D. Awesome thing feeling happy during the start of the day. Not sure how long it'll last, but I'll enjoy it while it lasts =D.

Have an idea of a song RIGHT NOW(while typing this post), wonder whether should right it down. =/ It's wierd how i feel happy about EVERYTHING now. Including when i do things that USUALLY make me depressed such as looking at 'so and so's picture/s and such. Infact seeing her face and that smile of hers just placed a smile back on mine o^-^o

I think it's God helping me. And i gratefully thank HIM now. The love i felt for music, for writing songs are returning, which really excites me what i'll be able to do.


Decided to put my faith in HIM.




Note to Gman : Dude pay more attention in class. If you know waterpolo's gonna be busy then make an effort to LISTEN. O and PLEASE let me do my work in peace THANK YOU! ^-^

Labels: Feelings, Rants

What I've Done.

Second post of the day, but had to let it out. I mean what have I done to deserve this? And seriously, whats with the hostility? Isit because once again I've been labelled an outcast and hence I'm treated like i have some sort of disease? O and stop dropping the not so subtle hints, and like talk "behind" my back, cause I DO understand what you guys mean. I'm not dumb or stupid. Blur at times though but aren't we all?Don't I have a Nose like you, Mouth like you, Ears like you, Eyes like you and FEELINGS like you? So tell me, what part of me is different?

Labels: Rants