Sian-ed

Life can be soo mediocre sometimes it makes you wanna scream. Wheres all the excitement in it.

well anyway tried to do AECAD yesterday but failed horribly. School laptop too slow/lousy apparently.It's soo slow/lousy i dun even see the blinking line to see where have i typed to in this post. WTH. I wants my ASUS laptop now please and thank you. So poor old me gotta rush it out today and tomorrow.Sigh. Life of a LAZY student.

Still i feel damn lost. Theres little reason to keep studying harder than what i am now. "For my future/own good" is the common reason my brain and parents throw at me but. It really all appears rather meaningless. Coupled with my seemingly forgetful brain (which forgets things very very quickly. It doesn't retain info as well as before, which resulted in me failling my ETE. I need help man. 15 min to lesson start now but really i don't feel like going. but what to do?

Same goes for my guitar. I really enjoy certain moments when i play/ practice, but those are like a rare sight. Recently i realised how lousy i am =.=''' mostly due to lack of practice, and me not having ennough skill. sigh.

I hope i find a reason to work hard soon. I'm determined to change but apparently either determination is not enough, or i just have a weak resolve?

Labels: Life Stories, Rants